I have no words
to give 
I have no faith
in a world
without knowing
there is more 
than just this
more than just
existing for 
the sake of it
I know that you
have unspoken
decrees about me
and unfulfilled
wishes coinciding
I just hope
that my tears
are not wasted
not this time at least.



Damaged from the start
I tend to ease
into the same role
in every occasion
where I relinquish
control of my mind
and my body
only to repeat
into yet another
where my voice 
is never heard
my heart never felt
and my feelings
I can never
be trusted
ever again
for I am damaged
even before we begin.